shake rattle roll

and a chaser of wash rinse and blow.

My area is normally not a real news worthy area for weather or other stuff. A few weeks ago we had straight line wind damage, tornato sightings and flooding... yesterday was the earthquake. Pretty good jolt for us, scared my one manager right to tears... not that it takes much for that weenie.

Now we are holding our breath to see what track Irene is gonna take. Hearing alot about a track close to Floyd in 1999. That was bad for us, real bad. I was just dating my husband at that time. He made a special trip to my house to drop off the book I had been reading and left at his place... :) Fond memories of a hot fireman showing up at my door in the middle of a damn hurricane.

I took the kiddo back to school shopping this week and today went to the grocery store for back to school snacks and stuff before the other people freak out and panic. I figure by tomorrow it will be like our snow storms... everyone will run to the stores.

reboot......

I know I tried to get this going again after losing dad but I think i wasn't in the right place at that time.

Now i am a bit more stable with the emotions and not so angry. We'll see how this goes now.

Lots of little stuff has been happening, dinners with friends, hanging out, normal summer stuff, pool time and a trip to the mountains with good friends.

That trip to the mountains was to short but just what I needed. My head is quieter it seems. Bill and I talked some stuff over and I am going to reduce my hours at work permanently and pursue some volunteer work at the local zoo. Try and get my foot in the door for a move up in the animal care world :) Today was my first day back to work after the trip and I can say I made the right choose, my boss just doesn't care about anything or anyone since her health issues last Nov and she basically threatened me with no work hours if I did this move. Oh well. I am going to do it and we'll make it work if she follows thur.

Thats the work front thats been settled....health? Not so much. I haven't been to the gym in almost 2 months. The diet went to crap also. But the mountain time has relite the fire again also.

Helps that I hiked a mountain! It was hard being out of shape but I hiked a freaking mountain!! :) Hurricane Mountain to be exact, 3 mile hike up 1600+ feet up... The view was amazing, you could see into vermont. Next year I plan on doing 2 mountains. I know its not one of the big 46 peaks but its a mountain and right now thats all I care about.

My friends parents are big time foodies so it was an adventure to see what they would cook up, mostly with organic stuff from the locals or their own garden. It was good to start actually caring what food tasted like and not just shoving it in.

I came home and picked up stuff from the local farmers market and the amish.

I go back to the gym this week also.

Day 08- Short term goals for this month and why

Well thats a short goal... as its only 6 more days of the month left.

Its an easy goal... getting back to the gym and getting back to eating right.

I have already been to the gym 3 times this week and will be going tonight also. That parts going ok, the eating right is going slower.

Why? thats obvious, to get in better shape.

Day 07- A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you

I can't answer this. I can't narrow it down to one thing or person.

My grandparents, my parents all had a great impact on my life and helped me be who I was, my husband and son for who I am now... so I guess that would be the someones... the something?? as odd as it would sound .. water. being around water , on the water or in the water has always calmed me down and helped to center myself.


yeah I know it said pictures but pulling up pictures of my grandparents and parents right now would just set me off on a crying jag,

i'm on an upward swing

I hope it lasts and I done crash. I started getting angry at myself for being a slug and for not caring. It isn't easy but with help I am pulling myself back up inch by inch. I know my reactions are normal, I know its all part of the normal healing process but its also fucking annoying!

My house isn't going to appear on the cover of BHG or any other magazine. I also am not going to appear on any Hoarders, Clean Sweep or other show dealing with homes in disastrous states. My house is a mess. I have always said its a comfortable mess.

Lately its not so comfortable. So I started cleaning. Its slow going because honestly I am the only one that does it. The kiddo is helping, he is cleaning up his room. Bill... well its hot season and I don't see Bill to much before8 at night and he is exhausted.

Besides the cleaning I have been trying to get back to eating better and going to the gym. Eating better is not only for my sake but for the wallet also, take out and junk food isn't cheap. I have clean out the frig, defrosted the big freezer and made a Costco run for meats.

I have also made it to the gym 2 times already this week and put my stickers on the calendar, yeah dorky maybe but its a visual reminder of what I have done along with the sore muscles....oh my abs :)

I have also finished 6 books total in the last 2 weeks.

Day 06- Favorite super hero and why

I was always a fan of Rogue from XMen. Not the current movie version crap but the comic book version from the late 80's. The cool white stripe in the hair, the ability to take on others abilities for a period of time was cool. You weren't tied down to just laser eyes, or sonic screeches or other lame things.


If I had to pick a second choice it would be BoomBoom. When she first hit the comics she was portrayed as a young cocky bubble gum chewing kid. I liked that version more then what she became as she grew up.

Day 05- A picture of somewhere you’ve been to

This was my first trip with Bill. We went to St Lucia. A wonderful place with lots of rainforest, waterfalls and beaches. The big attation landscape wise are the Pitons. We ranted a car and went driving around the island and got to them as the sun was starting to set. I am not sure if this is the Gros Piton or the Petit Piton but its an awesome picture, even if it was taken out the car window.